today...

so yeah...

In a way, I'm in a "can't sleep" state of being right now. It's true that I could jump in a bed and fall almost immediately asleep because my body is exhausted, but that's not going to happen right now.

No...right now I'm going to smile, and say that life is good.

No, life is great.

big fish...

cancerous.
eating away.
slowly.

death.
a reminder of life.
today.

where is love.
when there is pain.
where is hope.

my tears.
stain my face.
one at a time.

but wait...

And then you take a breath, look around you, and realize that life really isn't all that complicated.

You begin to understand that you are blessed far beyond what you could even have imagined, and because of that you wonder if something isn't dreadfully wrong behind it all. But nothing is; and God has given you amazing friends, an amazing life, and more importantly a more than amazing love.

If there's one thing to say right now it's that God's love surpasses all our small notions of what love is. For -

O Lord, what is man that you care for him,
the son of man that you think of him?
Man is like a breath; his days are like a fleeting shadow.
Psalm 144:3-4

What are we truly, except small specks of dust taking up space for a few years? And he still cares for us. Cares for us so very much.

can we start, start over...

Sigh.

I just wish life would be simpler at times.