God's timing...

I've come to the realization that God's timing is much more perfect than any of my planned out activities for the next week, month, or year.

I have quite a few examples of this, but most importantly I know that God will work everything for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Maybe this only works when hindsight is 20/20, but I had an idea during this past year that God was intricately weaving small threads of his plan into my life.

And looking back over these past six months I see nothing but grace and provision in EVERY aspect of my life. With new friends, a stronger love for my family, and even a couple marriages I have seen how God yearns to show me his love. Whether it be as simple as a hug from a loved one or a smile from a stranger, God makes himself known to me.

I was asked today how I had been treating God, and my answer wasn't what I would have liked it to be, but it was honest - and in a way I was giving myself a small tap on the shoulder reminding myself that I needed some QT with my Creator. It's so easy for me to fall out of any routine I may have started with devotionals or prayers, etc. and sometimes I wonder why. But at the same time God does not change and his view of me is no less, which gives me a peace that comforts my stressed out life.

I like peace.

middle of nowhere...

Boredom hits best when all objectives for the day come crashing to a grinding halt as a result of a simple migraine headache. Sure, I've been told they're not migraines, that they're simply headaches that affect every aspect of my being, but I refuse to believe they're "intense headaches." Simply because they don't happen that often and when they do they make the rest of my day miserable.

This one most definitely came out of the middle of nowhere, considering I hadn't had one like this the entire year. It could simply be a result of stress, I failed to mention it came right after I realized I wasn't supposed to be at jury duty today but tomorrow, after driving up to Santa Ana at 6:30 in the morning. And the way back was no better, getting lost on sidestreets to find a detour to the 22 which I took the wrong way, to finally find myself on the 405 S stuck in stop and go traffic. If that's not enough to make one annoyed, add in the trying to find a job factor along with having no money, and you've got yourself a bonafide bundle of crap.

But really, I'm fine, I'm just ranting because I've been annoyed with all of this the past couple of days and better have it down in words than festering in my mind. . .