did you hear the news today...

oh, you want news.

i guess i could give you a little.

i'm moving.

more to come later, i promise, i just don't feel like writing right now. it's late?

seasons change...

once again, it's been a while.

but that's okay. because i've been busy. busy figuring out life, busy flying north and south, east and west.

time goes so slowly these days. it's what i get for not being employed. 

today is tuesday. 

in 48 hours i'll have news.

these frail hands...

i need your love. 

and most of all i want to feel your peace. 

i need your love. 

let everything that you are not decrease.

be a man...

cry me to sleep. birds without beaks. quick clip my wings. falling from swings...

...follow carmen sandiego to the remotest parts of the earth young one, you have much to learn in this world of darkness and despair. the sky is falling but only just above you - sidestep left, backstep right. sing to your king for he is the only one who loves with purity.

happiness is...

joel said all i ever blog about are morbid depressing things.

well at least i blog!

some happy things happening soon:

• aj and rhi and coben and jonas are coming to town
• mikey mulligan is getting married (this means bachelor party to throw, rehearsal dinner to eat, tux to look hot in and songs to dance to)
  
• dinner with aj and rhi and coben and jonas and bri and james on monday
• softball game on monday after dinner
• a flight to texas on tuesday

there you have it. some unmorbidly delightful things.

ragamuffin poet queen...

where are you?

rest...

it's nice to lie down and do nothing. i don't relax enough. i don't take time to sit down and let my mind wander away from anything to worry about. that's one of the sad things i've noticed since being back for two weeks now. i can change that of course, i'm just thinking about how i didn't have to think about it three weeks ago. it just came naturally. and so what now? do i just sit and complain that i'm not getting enough rest or downtime? when in fact it's my own doing that has kept me so busy since i've been back home?...sigh.

sbux...

i've got nothing against starbucks. i worked there for a good three months and made my dent in the coffee industry. then i moved to costa rica and tasted some of the best coffee in the world, at a fraction of the price. i would drink coffee before breakfast, as a snack after lunch, and as a time filler in the afternoon. i knew it would only be a phase, but it was worth it while it lasted. now coffee seems more of a commodity, a luxury that not many of us can afford these days do to an all too struggling economy and a hike in the prices of lattes. i probably wouldn't be here if not for two reasons: the first being i'm meeting my friend wix here for good conversation for a bit, and the second that my dearest mum gave me a gift card to use. how simply wonderful.

vusc...

vanguard university. it is a quiet place today, with a few staff members running, or more specifically, strolling about finding people to talk to and any other excuse to refrain from turning in their small assignments to their prospective bosses. the grass has just been cut, with the telltale signs of a lawnmower being on its surface recently. this used to be a place where mud football was played after a rainy night, where giant ice cream sundaes were scarfed down in record time and glittering fairies went around kissing unsuspecting gnaves. amidst the hustle and bustle of all this, students would still find time to study in the wee hours of the morning, while their diligent roommates would be sleeping. times have changed though, people have left and the echoes of joyous laughter underneath the heath building whilst still under construction have long since faded away. it was a happy
place, but many moons ago.

almuerzo...

i have always loved the chipotle burrito. something about the deliciousness of it all, or even the way it is delicately wrapped in tin foil, makes it a lunch worth remembering. a small problem i had today was that i forgot what i usually ordered - a burrito bowl with white beans, chicken, corn, sour cream and cheese. oh and a bag of chips. so instead of ordering that i bought a chicken fajita burrito with said toppings. i'm actually still pleased, so all in all it's turning out to be a good day.

these sandals were made for walking...

I miss walking. So I've taken it upon myself to walk more than I usually would, instead of using my scooter or my car. I actually unintentionally lost quite a bit of weight over in Costa Rica and I attribute this to walking almost everywhere I went. Tonight, instead of scooting to grab some pizza for dinner, I'm walking. This way will take me 25 more minutes - but at least I'll get to take in the view more...

te amo...

yesterday you came running

full speed to the door

looking around with hope

"james? y james?

...dondé está james?"

no estoy allí yosimar

y lo siento mucho

mucho. mucho. mucho.

passport protection...

dang it's been a while.

but heyyy...you can count on this being updated more often now - i give my word.

just not now, gotta run!

rain rain rain...

i love the rain here. the mornings will start off nice and sunny and have the makings of a beautiful day. but by the time the afternoon rolls around...you'll hear one crack of thunder and then you know the rain is near. shortly, if not immediately, thereafter, the rain falls. and hard. and i love it.

our street goes a fraction downhill, and so when the rain pours the gutters fill up and the road becomes somewhat of a river. it's a sight to see, that's for sure. at times trash bags will be carried along, with random tree branches and even small children.

i'm just glad i don't have to be riding my scooter in all of this.

invictus...

i've been breaking my back... yeah

only to show You
how very lost one can be
and bitterness fires through me

the brilliance that was
is flickering cold
slowly burning to ash
i'm choking on pride
i'm closing my eyes
'till one day i'm scared to go back

You part the shadows
Light of the World
destroy the blindness
peace eternal

take this broken heart
if it brings You praise
take this beaten soul
shivering hands i will raise

Hope Unstoppable
sing the morning sun
wake up oh sleeper
the Daylight has come

You are, You are
Invincible
You are You are
Unbreakable

take this broken heart
if it brings You praise
take this beaten soul
shivering hands i will raise

Hope Unstoppable
sing the morning sun
wake up oh sleeper
the Daylight has come

You are, You are
Invincible
You are You are
Unbreakable
You are You are
Invincible
You are You are
Unbreakable

i've been breaking my back
only to show you how very lost
one can be

sigh...

content.

in the weirdest of ways.

my circumstances make me smile.

don't ask me how, or why.

i have no answer.

i just know that life.

is good.

friends...

This post goes out to Kyle and Joel.

Just because.

lord (i don't know)...

You are the author of knowledge
You can redeem what's been done
You hold the present and all that's to come
Until your everlasting kingdom

Lord, I don't know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead me to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt

You are the God of tomorrow
Turning the darkness to dawn
Lifting the hopeless with hope to go on
You are the rock of all salvation

Lord, I don't know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead me to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt

Oh, Lord, you are the author
Redeeming what's been done
You hold us in the present
And all that is to come

Lord, we don't know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead us to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt

proverbs 3:5-6...

trust in the Lord with all your heart

and lean not on your own understanding

in all your ways acknowledge Him

and He will make your paths straight

i need thee...

I need Thee every hour, most gracious Lord
No tender voice like Thine can peace afford

I need Thee every hour, stay Thou nearby
Temptations lose their power
When Thou art nigh

I need thee, oh, I need thee, every hour I need Thee
I need thee, I need thee, I need Thee every hour

I need Thee every hour in joy or pain
Come quickly and abide or life is in vain
I need Thee, oh, I need Thee, every hour I need Thee
I need Thee, I need Thee, I need Thee every hour
I need Thee, I need Thee, I need Thee every hour

Oh, bless me now, my Savior, I come to Thee
Oh, bless me now, my Savior, I come to Thee
I need Thee every hour, teach me Thy will
And Thy rich promises in me fulfill

I need Thee, oh, I need Thee
Oh I need Thee every hour
I need Thee, I need Thee, I need Thee every hour
I need Thee, I need Thee, I need Thee every hour

Oh, bless me now, my Savior, I come to Thee